One thing that I never really realized about myself until adulthood is that I am pretty gullible. Looking back it seems I may have been the last one to figure that out. Relatedly (horrible transition but let's go with it), one thing that I have known about myself for quite a while that other people may not know is that I have a propensity for blocking out some of the more unpleasant situations that I have encountered in life. I believe professionals in the field of psychology call this DENIAL. Suffice to say that you could come up to me and apolgoize for something mean you did to me 10 years ago and there is a large chance I wouldn't remember it.
However, lately I have been having brain tickles regarding some of the more outrageous things I was tricked into believeing by my "friends" back in my elemetary and middle school days. (Brain tickles being latent memories that are slowly surfacing- I'm sure it's perfectly normal.) It's weird because I had sort of idealized these childhood friendships and now I'm starting think that I grew up with a bunch of assholes.
One girl had me totally believing that her uncle was Tom Petty, which now I'm seriously doubting was the case. (It may have helped that I pretty much had no idea who Tom Petty was.) I'm declining to go into some of the other things that I'm pretty sure might have been blatant lies for the amusment of others, but I have to point out how ridicous it is that I NEVER realized that these were jokes. Like as in never before I moved away from that town forever and never as in I believed, and referred to, these "jokes" for years of my childhood.
Here's the thing, my problem has always been that I ALWAYS tell the truth. I tell the truth when it hurts, I tell the truth when people don't want to hear it, I am a blunt axe of truth. So I just expected for many, many years that when a person said something to me, that wasn't laced with sarcasm, that they were being sincere.
I don't really have a point- other than it's a little crazy what you all of a sudden realize. Also, the obvious: I'm totally in the market for some oceanfront property in Arizona.
